I have no idea what's in your head. Oh, wait. Maybe I do confuse you too.

You know what's the most powerful game right now?

I say mind games. It's killing me.

For a moment, I felt so bad. The next minute, I felt like I am never gonna believe you ever again.

And now, I feel that I'm feeling bad again? Argh.

If you just stop with whatever thing that is you're doing now to make me feel fucking bad, I'd probably stop my mood swing. Or what you call it as Hot n Cold. And be really nice to you.

Sometimes I find myself really good in acting. So whenever it comes to the some of you I become the fake me automatically. I laugh and talk like the usual me and you never realise that it was a fake and unsincered one. Under that kinda situation, I just can't help it and forced to be fake. Sorry.

I don't know where to start. But just randomly type okay?



I actually don't bear to leave JB after so long staying here. Like I've been saying how much I miss to go back KL. It's actually not me missing KL. I realise I just wanna be with my girls. It's the people and never the place.




My stupid phone line got barred again. Aihh. It happens like every month? It's actually me barring myself. I set the limit so low so that I won't use much and yet I'm complaining. Just hate it when you need to make an important call and you can't. Luckily got my sister's one to use. She doesn't seem to use the phone much also. Sorry la but at least I told her after I use it. Haha!




I went to visit Matthew's grandma. Her wide smile when she saw me really made my day. Somehow I felt warmth in it. I guess I already made her to be part of my family way too long ago. Just feel so nice to see her. :)

I brought her and his aunty the enzyme my mum made as usual. But this time I went li'l late cause I was too lazy to travel so far away to Skudai. So kept procastinating. Anyway, the point is I felt so damn bad. Honestly, when she saw me and say I didn't come for a very long time already, I felt so bad. I felt that I should have came earlier to talk to her or something. She wanted me to stay for dinner but I couldn't. Halfway chatting with her, I cried. She has been really nice to me. Really.

And you know what, I swear I'm gonna make it up the next time I come back.




Sometimes the person you thought you'd miss the most but you didn't; none at all,
and you actually ended up missing someone else you never thought you'd ever miss.

I found myself missing a few someone else already while packing my stuff and getting ready to go back KL. It's not like I am never gonna come back. Just hate it being far away from someone; it doesn't feel good.

So when you miss someone, let them know.




I think my Malay kinda sorta maybe improved? Heh. I was working with this bunch of Malay collegues. Funny people I can say. Never fails to tell me funny story of theirs in just a few hours of my working time there. As you guys know, I don't work for long hours. You know I told quite a few people the first sentence of this paragraph and they all kept quiet as if they didn't hear it at all. I wonder if YOU are giving the same reaction now reading this. =.= Like the reaction Eddie would always give me and say, "Why you so lame one you?"
Ish.




Alcohol made me molest people most of the time. Remember this sentence. I guess it can prevent some trauma to some people. =X But I think Miss Von Ho would like it very much, right? *wink*




You, when you told me you meant every single thing you said, I forgot to tell you something;
Time proves everything. We'll see.




Pictures? I don't have any. But will try to get it from somewhere somehow.
Self shots? Don't want lah. I shy k. (I think this phrase sounded a li'l familiar. Like what this girl would say XD)